Thursday, March 18, 2010

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

Dying to Leave

Done with living here.
You made it worse.
I can't feel at home here.
Now more than ever I need SLEEP.
Grant me this simple request:

Try and see things my way.
Only then will I stop.

Love is what my end goal is.
Easy to find it is not.
Although it exists.
Value what you have but don't be afraid to want more.
Even if someone else tells you to stop.


--Till then...

Eff Insomnia

Insomnia seems to be getting worse lately, which usually isn't a good sign. Last night, I went to bed at 10, taking a Benadryl at like 8:30. The entire time was a struggle to get and stay asleep with horrible dreams along the way. And here I am, awake at 3, even though I woke up at 6:30 this morning... This is MADDENING. Nothing works. It's like I'm meant to stay up or something. I used to have terminal insomnia, or early-morning waking. Now I can't even fall asleep like I used to. Even though I have a pretty rigid schedule that I've been on for weeks, I can't fall asleep. UHHHHHHH!!! Sadly, no one really understands it. My friend with insomnia doesn't seem too phased by it. You really take it for granted when you can sleep easily. But these incessant thoughts...

This kind of sums up everything:

--Till then...